Without Sound
By Arnisha Royston
After watching Black Panther 2
the man next to me sobs
each inhale heavy
the sound of air
moves in then out
fades beneath
the music
holds me still
when i die lift me up bury me
in a casket
my mother can visit
maybe in the
sky.
there are no rituals for
death in my family.
i think
i've known that this kind of pain
is permanent.
a face so still that you can see
each tear form
before it falls—grief—-
don’t leave me
don’t leave me
my mother tells me
if she dies
don’t waste money
on a funeral—i nod
she returns to the pot
it’s simple
but i’m sobbing—silent still
each tear dissolving before it falls.
no woman, no cry.
leaning close to the screen
i think
maybe none of this is real
maybe i’ve grown
too accustom to death.
i used crawl under the table
when shots rang out
no one died
or
i don’t remember
death
just a child who knew survival.
everyone is crying
and i feel each breath
each tear
each body
sink lower
i move closer
to understand
what it means to
carry pain
without sound
without feeling
just tell me what i need to do.
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About Author
Arnisha Royston is a poet from Los Angeles. She holds a BA from the University of California, Los Angeles and a MFA from San Diego State University. Arnisha aims to extend the understanding of poetry and its relationship to the African American community, through her experience as a writer. Her poetry can be found in literary journals such as, Michigan Quarterly Review, North American Review, and Phoebe, to name a few. Arnisha can be found on Twitter and Instagram.