Radiant Porcelain
By Patrick Holian
we stood at the edge of the cliff, overlooking the sea,
down in Pacifica, remember, near that Fancy Taco Bell, the one
I took my sister to for her prom after her boyfriend Rick
drowned down in Santa Cruz, the one where that off-duty FBI
agent saved that girl from getting raped, the one that
Trevor Hunter bet me $75 I couldn’t eat 15 Crunchwrap Supremes
and I got 12 in before I started to cry and vomit in
the parking lot, I hear he holds dead fish and dead elk in his
dating profile pics now, I think my sister fucked him
when she got sober, the first time, not the second time, he’s got
a cicada tattooed on his ribcage, he’s got a beautiful dick,
from what I’ve heard, he joined this very hip Christian church and
told my mom all about it at Safeway, told her he’s unraveling
the mysteries of the universe through or with the blood of Christ,
I can’t remember which it was, but do you remember,
you gave me this radiant porcelain plate, it was blue and white
and there was an image of a peacock engulfed in flames
painted on it, some artist friend of yours in Berlin made it specially
for you, or for me, I guess, it was a gift, you gave me
that plate and a cold Meximelt from the Fancy Taco Bell, you sat
me down and told me that I didn’t have to choose between
tenderness and strength, you served me that cold Meximelt on that
gorgeous plate and kissed my forehead and told me tenderness was strength.
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Patrick Holian
The writer is a Mexican American writer from San Francisco, California, with an MFA in Creative Writing from St. Mary’s College of California and a PhD in English from the University of Louisiana at Lafayette. His poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Gigantic Sequins, The Cincinnati Review, PRISM international, Yalobusha Review, The Indianapolis Review, Southern Humanities Review, Moon City Review, Bennington Review, The Acentos Review, Peach Magazine, and Salt Hill Journal, and they a finalist for Michigan Quarterly Review’s 2021 Goldstein Prize in Poetry. You can follow Patrick on Twitter @HolianMartin and Instagram @cautiouslypessimistic.